WARNING!!! a poopy diary
(mostly bad shit)
+ scans of things i own
(cool shit)
(mostly bad shit)
+ scans of things i own
(cool shit)
THEY ARE KEEPING ME SANE
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[my personal shityard]:
just a space for me to pour my thoughts that 80% might delete lol
just a space for me to pour my thoughts that 80% might delete lol
[Butt shart]: 6/9/25
What to do with no structure in the summer but to mope around :P
What. Who am I outside of teh deathley comfort of my home, off and alone
yet alone with opportunity to know more faces
to do something that will not leave me as a fading memory
But somehow stand on my own two feet without no warm hands to hold
to convince the rest of the world that I am human
i want to be understood
no, i know...
but i still don't know if i can love myself fully enough
What to do with no structure in the summer but to mope around :P
What. Who am I outside of teh deathley comfort of my home, off and alone
yet alone with opportunity to know more faces
to do something that will not leave me as a fading memory
But somehow stand on my own two feet without no warm hands to hold
to convince the rest of the world that I am human
i want to be understood
no, i know...
but i still don't know if i can love myself fully enough
[ERM]: 12/23/24
Damn did i accidently take my meds twice today ...
its ok
im feeling ok Im happy im having a good time with fam
sometimes I feel like i been sinkin back into my shell a little though
and i kinda mope around
Its ok.
Damn did i accidently take my meds twice today ...
its ok
im feeling ok Im happy im having a good time with fam
sometimes I feel like i been sinkin back into my shell a little though
and i kinda mope around
Its ok.
[MY BAD]: 12/11/24
TMI warning sorry gang
But i was doing errands driving and...
i had to take a shit. Not the normal kind. It was so fucking horrible
And so i was nearby the place where i had to stop, i stopped by a bakery bc i was going to
get some stuff as well.
I ran for my fucking life ignoring my ugly ass parking
And as i made it around the corner, someone had just exit and the door was open
I had a quick glance, it was customers only with a code. I fucking made it in time before the door closed itself
It was gender neutral. Thank you lord. even if it was mens Idgaf
The stars had aligned for me today. Thank you god for not having me shit my pants.
TMI warning sorry gang
But i was doing errands driving and...
i had to take a shit. Not the normal kind. It was so fucking horrible
And so i was nearby the place where i had to stop, i stopped by a bakery bc i was going to
get some stuff as well.
I ran for my fucking life ignoring my ugly ass parking
And as i made it around the corner, someone had just exit and the door was open
I had a quick glance, it was customers only with a code. I fucking made it in time before the door closed itself
It was gender neutral. Thank you lord. even if it was mens Idgaf
The stars had aligned for me today. Thank you god for not having me shit my pants.
[fear of the world]: 4/2/24
Insanely anxious recently. Not crippling bad but almost, i so very trying my best to keep myself together. physically uncomfortable and always overthinking.
ive been feeling pretty shitty sometimes at work because ive messed up and forget to things here and there. I try my best but I mess up a lot, especially alone.
i don't know what i am doing
being an adult is so hard
I want to cry sometimes and hide away from everyone. but i must persist in this difficult world.
Insanely anxious recently. Not crippling bad but almost, i so very trying my best to keep myself together. physically uncomfortable and always overthinking.
ive been feeling pretty shitty sometimes at work because ive messed up and forget to things here and there. I try my best but I mess up a lot, especially alone.
i don't know what i am doing
being an adult is so hard
I want to cry sometimes and hide away from everyone. but i must persist in this difficult world.
[entry 2]: 11/9/23
I am sometimes really scared that i will be so behind in this world and everything that i do will amount 2 nothing.
I am sometimes really scared that i will be so behind in this world and everything that i do will amount 2 nothing.
[entry 1 - beginning]: 11/1/23
as i am typing this im feeling ok. I hate the cold weather i hate the lack of sun. but at least i get to wear sweaters and jackets i absolutely love.
anyways. thatd be kinda cool to have a clothing section here too, but i'm just gonna devote all of them to my little dodaads. i can't wait to come back home... wait i forgot i have a long ass day today...
i wish i could come back home to some bright ass sun to take proper photos of my thrifted items/stickers so i can get this page filled... watever tho
as i am typing this im feeling ok. I hate the cold weather i hate the lack of sun. but at least i get to wear sweaters and jackets i absolutely love.
anyways. thatd be kinda cool to have a clothing section here too, but i'm just gonna devote all of them to my little dodaads. i can't wait to come back home... wait i forgot i have a long ass day today...
i wish i could come back home to some bright ass sun to take proper photos of my thrifted items/stickers so i can get this page filled... watever tho
